Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Week 6

big yawn!!

Age: Six weeks old.  April 22, 2013.
Weight & Height: My mom and dad think that I've gained a lot of weight but I won't be officially weighed for another 2 weeks. 
Things I enjoy: Sleeping.  I gave my mom and dad a present for my 6 week old birthday...I slept for 6 hours!  Yes, you read that correctly.  I was being a pain in the butt on Sunday night and nursed every hour starting at 6:00pm.  My mom and dad put me to bed about 11:30pm and I slept until 5:50am!!
I still love sleeping, nursing, laying on my changing pad, bouncing on the exercise ball, laughing and smiling, snuggling with dad each morning, and going on walks. 
Skills I've mastered: I now smile and laugh when my mom and dad talk to me.  They are the best parents ever! 
Tough Times: This past week was pretty successful.  Everyone was right...6 weeks really is the magic number.  Nursing is easier, sleeping is easier (for me and my parents), and my mom is allowed to take a bath and exercise now.
Exciting Events: I went to Edwin Warner Park with my Aunt Kayla and we all walked for almost 2 hours.  I was so good and got pretty hungry at the end of the walk.  I screamed the whole way home.  Good thing that we live close to the park because mom would have freaked out and pulled over.  She REALLY doesn't like it when I cry.  The longest that she has let me cry is 5 minutes.  It makes her so sad.  Dad doesn't like it either...especially when I have tears in my eyes when I'm crying. 
Looking forward to: I can't wait for Mimi to come visit again and to see Pop Pop and meet Nana in a few weeks!

Week 5

Age: Five weeks old.  Tax Day! April 15, 2013.
Weight & Height: I haven't been weighed or measured in a little while.  My next appointment with the pediatrician will be on my 8 week old birthday.  
Things I enjoy: I still love laying on my changing pads.  I love looking at the fans in the living room and Sabres room.  I have peed in my dad's face countless times while he is changing my diaper!  I love the morning time!  We get up as a family around 7:00am and my dad changes my diaper (that is always super full because I have slept for about 4-5 hours) Then, my mom feeds me and when I'm finished I snuggle with dad for about an hour before he has to get ready for work.  I am so happy in the morning which makes my mom and dad really happy too!  While I snuggle with dad, mom usually makes coffee and breakfast for herself, makes dad's lunch, and takes my brother outside and feeds him.  Then, when it's time for dad to get ready I am ready to eat again!  This past week, I was driving my mom and dad crazy because they still haven't accepted that my fussy time ranges from 7:00pm-11:00pm.  It may last all 4 hours or I may fuss for just an hour.  My mom remembered that her friend used an exercise ball to help her baby settle down.  So, mom got out her exercise ball!  I LOVE IT!  Dad is so good at bouncing me.  Whenever I want to bounce, I just fuss, fuss, fuss and then he hops right on and bounces until I stop!  It also helps me burp.
My mom straps me in just in case I get crafty and roll off of the table!

Skills I've mastered: Sleeping, Nursing, and following my mom and dads voice when they talk to me! 
Tough times:  This day wasn't tough for me, but my mom was pretty exhausted.  On Wednesday, April 17th I was going though another growth spurt and ate 16 times in 24 hours!  It was so wonderful.  My mom didn't have anything to do that day so I would just eat and then we would snuggle together in bed and take naps and have mommy and baby time!  I loved it! 
Exciting Events: On Monday to went to my future school for my first faculty meeting at Westminster! I loved being in the Purple Room!  My mom and Aunt Annie's classroom is so cool.  They have so many things to look at on the walls and hanging from the ceiling!  I went back to school on Thursday and Friday this week so that my mom could do Parent/Teacher Conferences with Aunt Annie.  I was so good!  I stayed in my car seat in Housekeeping and ate during one of their breaks and then again when conferences were over.  All of the parents loved seeing me!  I can't wait to meet my mom's students, but I have to wait until I'm a little bit older.  This weekend I got to meet Uncle Eric.  He is funny and gives Aunt Lindsay such a hard time...hehe.  I like him!  On Saturday, I hung out with Aunt Lindsay, my great Aunt Anna Claire and my cousins.  It was so much fun and Great Aunt Anna Claire was making me laugh so hard when she was holding me.  It was the first time that I laughed at someone!  This weekend I went out to dinner on Friday night and Saturday night!  I was so good.  Friday night we went to Lemongrass and Saturday night we went to Taco Mamacitas for Emily's birthday.  I liked how loud the restaurants were.  My dad fed me a bottle at both restaurants so I wasn't fussy at all!  Mom and dad were so happy about that!
Aunt Lindsay held me while she ate her sushi at Lemongrass! I'm a lucky guy!

Looking forward to:  I am looking forward to having my Mimi come back and take care of me.  My mom is going to go back to work on April 29th.  I'll be 7 weeks old.  There are only 14 days of school left so she is going to work from 8:30am-12:30pm.  My Mimi is going to watch me the first week and then Pop Pop and my Nana (who I am so excited to meet) is going to come the next week and then my neighbor is going to watch me for a few days the last week.  I'm a little nervous for my mom to be gone but glad that Mimi is coming back to visit. 

Week 4

Age: Four weeks old.  April 8, 2013.
Weight & Height: On Friday, April 5th, 2013 I went to a place with my mom called 9 Months and Beyond.  There was a breast feeding class called Weigh-to-go-Baby!  They weighed me on the scale before my mom nursed me.  Then, after I was finished they weighed me again.  I weighed 8lb 12oz.  Whooo Hoo!  My mom felt so good after going to the class.  I ate 3.4oz on one boobie!!  The teacher there said that was great!  I was happy to see my mom feeling so proud.  Since that class she has become more relaxed when nursing which makes it easier for me too. 
Things I enjoy: Nursing.  I love laying on my changing table pad so much.  My mom and dad have 2 in the house and they keep one in the living room.  When I am crying for no reason they put me on the changing pad on the coffee table in the living room and I stare at the fan.  I love looking at all of the fans in the house.  This week mom and Linus and I have been waiting for dad outside in the rocking chair.  I love it when my dad gets home from work. 
Here we are waiting for my dad to get home from work!

Skills I've mastered: Sleeping, Nursing, and following my mom and dads voice when they talk to me! 
Tough times:  This past week has been really good. I have been giving my mom and dad a break and sleeping well at night.  I have started a new thing though that I think they are a little annoyed about.  I do NOT like to go to bed before 11:00pm.  Sometimes they try to trick me and my mom works so hard to keep me awake all day so that I go to bed earlier.  She is NOT fooling me.  My dad holds me from about 8:00pm-11:00pm when he is home from work.  I'm sure after a couple more weeks my parents will just give in and stop trying to put me to bed before I'm ready! 
Exciting Events: I celebrated my 4 week old birthday at the zoo with my Aunt Jill and cousin Addison.  It was pretty fun.  My mom nursed me in public twice while we were there!  She is always so proud when she does that and I am really good for her when I eat in public because I don't want her to get frustrated.  The zoo was pretty fun.  I slept most of the time.  My cousin kept telling me all about the animals while we were there.  I can't wait to go back to the zoo with him! My mom went to see an orthopedic surgeon (Dr. David Moore- who's son was in her class last year) and he checked her shoulder out and gave her a steroid shot.  Since then her should has felt a lot better!  Also, that same day I got to walk with my friend Lincoln and Aunt Chandra on the Greenway by their house.  I was not as good as my mom had hoped for.  I really like being held and it was a long walk.  I got pretty fussy about halfway through so my mom picked me up and held me.  As soon as she picked me up out of the stroller I felt better!  This weekend was fun too.  Mom, dad, Linus, and I all hung out together....just the 4 of us.  Mom and dad did some yard work during the day and I sat outside with them some of the time.  I was even good for them and slept in my swing for over an hour so mom could do some chores inside the house.  Friday and Saturday night we blew up the air mattress and watched movies in the Sabres room.  I was a little fussy during the movies but dad held me and mom nursed me whenever I wanted!  Then, in the mornings on Saturday and Sunday we all snuggled together!  I love the morning time and I am always so happy!This weekend I got to go to my 1st soccer game.  I watched my cousin Margaret play!  Mom tells me that I will be spending A LOT of time here - whether I like it or not!  Haha. 
It was a little chilly so I have my cardigan from Aunt Sarah on and my dad let me wear his hat because it was SO sunny and dad was worried I would get a baby sunburn!

Looking forward to: I get to go to my mom's school on Monday for a meeting.  I am pretty excited about that.  I get to be with Aunt Annie too.  I miss her. Also, Aunt Lindsay and Uncle Eric are coming to hang out with me next weekend and I can't wait to meet Uncle Eric.  I hear he is pretty funny!

Week 3

Three Weeks Old!
Age: Three weeks old.  April 1, 2013.
Weight & Height: Last weight was 7 lb 15 oz. on Monday, March 25th, 2013. 20.5 inches long.  
Things I enjoy: I am sleeping better and better at night.  I still love nursing, and my new favorite thing is to cluster nurse for about 5 hours straight from about 5:00pm-10:00pm.  It makes my mom pretty tired, but she knew about the growth spurt that I would go through around 3 weeks!  
Skills I've mastered: sleeping and cluster nursing!  
Tough times: I am going though a growth spurt right now and I like to nurse at random times.  There have been several days that I nurse every 45 minutes.  I think my mom gets a little stressed out. 
Exciting Events: My 3 week old birthday is also my mom and dad's 2 year wedding anniversary.  They went to dinner together to Lemongrass and I stayed home with Grandma and Grandpa.  Mom got to eat sushi for the first time in about 10 months.  She was very excited about that!
Here we are!  My whole family!

Speaking of Grandma and Grandpa.  They came all the way from Buffalo to meet me.  They got here on Saturday evening and stayed with me a whole week.  They even brought me my very 1st Eater basket and a whole bunch of other goodies.  I have them wrapped around my little finger already!!   Haha.  My mom went and saw her kids at school for picture day.  I know that she has been missing them and Aunt Annie a lot.  I stayed home with Grandma and Grandpa.  They are so fun.  My Grandma talks to me the whole time that she is holding me and tells me how precious I am.  Grandma even plays the piano for me!  I love laying with Grandpa on his tummy while watching the Sabres play.  I heard my mom and dad talking and hopefully we will be going to Buffalo for the 4th of July.  I miss them already! On April 4, 2013 I went to the Red Bicycle with Aunt Sarah for a coffee and crepe date.  My mom fed me right before we left the house but of course I was hungry about 45 minutes later.  My mom nursed me in public for the first time!!  She was so excited.  Aunt Sarah was there to help if mom needed it.  Mom did a pretty good job and was glad that she was with Aunt Sarah for her first time because she is so calm and collected in times like this so my mom wasn't nervous at all!  Total Success!
totally natural!  NIP and drinking a turtle latte!

Then, we went to dinner at The Pharmacy with Grandma, Aunt Jill, and cousin Addison and I was hungry again right when we got there.  Mom nursed me while we were waiting for our table in the front area of the crowded restaurant!  She even walked with me nursing to our table.  The greeter there offered to carry my car seat and diaper bag so I didn't have to stop eating and then made sure that no one bumped into my mom while we were walking to the table. Shout out to the rockstar greeter and the Pharmacy for being cool with breast feeding moms!
Addison wanted Leland to hear a story while he was having "dinner"! He loves his cousin!
Looking forward to:  I can tell that my mom is still trying to get the hang of breast feeding and being super mom.  She reads all kinds of articles, blogs, and looks in books (Dr. Sears books are her favorite) about things that she is wondering about.  I have heard her say to friend that she thought that all of this would be a lot more natural feeling.  Everyone keeps telling her that 6 weeks is the magic number and if she can make it that far then she is golden.  Her shoulder is still hurting her, and I know that is so frustrating for her.  My dad is a rockstar and always changes my diaper when he is home and holds me the second that he walks in the door from work! 

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Week 2

Two Weeks Old!
Age: Two weeks old. March 25th, 2013
Weight & Height: 7 lb 15 oz.  20.5 inches long.  My doctor told my mom and dad that gaining an ounce a day is good work.  Well, I am an over achiever and I gained 12ounces instead of just 8! 
Things I enjoy: I am getting better at nursing.  I nurse about every 2-3 hours.  Sometimes I want to nurse every hour.  My mom is still getting used to this. 
Skills I've mastered: sleeping!I sleep about 3-4 hours a night.  It makes my mom and dad very happy when I do that! 
Tough times: I am getting better and better at staying awake while nursing.  I have realized how good the milk is and want to drink every drop!  I am a pretty efficient eater.  My mom is still nervous that I am not drinking all of the milk and she thinks that she will get a plugged duct or mastitis.  Everyone keeps telling her not to worry, but I can tell she is constantly thinking about it.  
Exciting Events: I wouldn't call this event exciting, but I got circumcised on Friday, March 22nd.  Mom was a total wreck.  Nervous as all get out.  She even wanted Dad to come back with me but my doctor said it would be best if both of them waiting in the room.  It was probably for the best.  I peed in the nurses face when she took off my diaper.  I guess I was just making sure that she knew who was boss.  Dad had to go to work that day and so mom was home by herself with me.  Everything was fine until she had to change my diaper for the first time after the circumcision.  The gauze was stuck to my penis and I was not making the situation better because I was screaming at the top of my lungs.  Then I pooped all over the changing table and mom really freaked out.  She called Dad crying and he came straight home to help her.  After that first diaper change the rest were pretty easy.  My Aunt Lindsay came up a few hours after the nervous breakdown my Mom had and helped out.  Both of us were so glad that she was there.  She even helped my Mom learn how to feed me laying down which is my new favorite.  Plus, it makes my Mom feel better because I eat a lot more that way!
Looking forward to:  I am looking forward to meeting my Grandma and Grandpa who are coming from Buffalo for a whole week!
Here I am meeting my great uncle Robbie and my second cousin, Laurel!

Cousin Addison and me!

skin to skin with Mommy, my favorite!

Mom and I wore matching outfits to Addison's birthday party! 

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Week 1

One week old!
Age: One week old. March 18th, 2013
Weight & Height: 7 lb 1 oz. on Friday, March 15th, 2013. 20.5 inches long.  I left the hospital weighing 6lb 13oz.  I gained 4 oz in 24 hours!  The nurses and doctor were so proud of my mom and me!
Things I enjoy: I love sleeping.  I sleep too much actually.  My mom and dad have to constantly wake me up while I am nursing so that I eat and gain a lot of weight! They rub me with cold wash cloths and tickle my feet, which I hate! I am a pooping and peeing master.  On my first night home, my mom was checking my diaper on her bed and I peed all over the place, even in my mouth! It was a welcome home present that I had been planning for the last 4 days.  I have a wonderful sense of humor!
Skills I've mastered: sleeping!
Tough times: I sleep a lot while nursing and it can make my mom pretty frustrated.  She is always worrying if I am getting enough to eat.  I think that my blood sugar dropping in the hospital the night before we left scared her.  Hopefully at my two week appointment she will see that I am eating plenty and gaining the right amount of weight! 
Exciting Events: We all came home from the hospital on Thursday, March 14th, 2013 at 11:00am.  I got to meet my big brother.  He was pretty loud and so excited to see mom and dad.  I'm glad that he likes me and has forgiven mom and dad for leaving him for 4 whole days.  My mom's milk came in the night that we came home and I got to drink so much!  It was wonderful!  I also peed all over mom and dad's bed riiiight before they were going to put me in the bassinet!  Hahaha! Dad is so good at swaddling me.  I really like being swaddled nice and tight before bed. 
Looking forward to:  I am looking forward to nursing, nursing, nursing!
here I am meeting my big brother for the first time!

my 1st sleep in the bassinet that was bought for my Pop Pop when he was born!

Dad and me watching my 1st hockey game. 

Leland Henning

    Sunday morning, March 10th began like any other Sunday morning.  I had texted a bunch of family members and friends and asked them what their guess date would be for Leland's birth date!  Little did I know!  Nate and I went to the 10:00 church service at The Village Chapel.  As a congregation, we prayed for a mother who passed away during the birth of her 5th daughter due to complications.  I was an emotional wreck during the rest of the prayers.  Nate just held my hand.  It had been one of my fears the entire pregnancy that something would happen to me or that Leland wouldn't be healthy and perfect like I had imagined him to be.  After church, Nate and I went to Green Hills Mall  and bought a laundry basket from the Container Store and I parked in the "Expectant Mother's Parking Only" spot!  1st time for everything!  I was pumped.

 We went home, had lunch, Nate went and played an ice-hockey game and I took a nap.  On his way home from the game he went to the grocery store for me, and I hung out with our neighbors in the cul-de-sac for about an hour.  It was about 5:30pm at this point.  We were all visiting outside, chatting, and checking out the rock star garden that some of our neighbors are beginning in their back yard!  I had, had a few strong "period cramps" during the hour that I was outside visiting.  One of our neighbors asked if I was having a Braxton Hicks contraction.  I told her that it felt more like an intense period cramp.  It began to rain and we all ran back into our homes.  It was 6:34pm.
     I went inside to use the restroom because I felt like I needed to have a BM.  More "period cramps" came and went.  I felt like I needed to walk around so I finished with my business and hello mucus plug!  I immediately texted bestie Suzy to ask her about what it looked like and how large they are supposed to be!  I also mentioned these "period cramps."  She was super pumped and told me to start timing!!  I could NOT believe that this was happening.  I called to Nate and told him that I thought I was in labor.  His response was, "I guess I better go take a shower!"  He went and showered, and I downloaded the contractions app.  I knew that the contractions needed to be 1 minute long, 5 minutes apart, for an hour before we went to the hospital.  They were about 35 seconds in length and came every 3-5 minutes.  Nate and I were running around the house doing chores, eating dinner, washing clothes and dishes and sheets.  We even wrote our Birth Plan and printed it out!  It was not nearly as detailed as I had planned but it was what we needed so it worked. 
     The contractions, which I need to add feel NOTHING like Braxton Hicks contractions, kept coming and were about 40-50 seconds long and about 4-5 minutes apart.  I had called the midwife and Lori said to keep working at this and it could happen tonight, tomorrow, or in another day.  She told us to call back when they were 1 minute long, 5 minutes apart, for an hour.  That was at 7:44pm.  I kept walking around and showering and trying to do things around the house.  I called my mom at 9:30pm.  She thought I was kidding.  I purposefully did NOT joke about being in labor the entire pregnancy so that people would not think I was crying wolf when the time actually came.  Well, the 4 people that I called to let them know this was the real thing, didn't believe me at first!  Hehe.  I told my parents to wait a few hours and I would call them back and let them know how things were going.  My mom, dad, and Lins decided to shower and hop in the car.  Kristen decided to wait until the morning and head up around 8:00am.
     For the next 6 hours I laid in bed on my left side and showered about 7 times.  I did not want to take a bath (much to mine and Nate's surprise).  Nate would time my contractions and they were getting more and more intense. Still, they were about 45 seconds long and came about every 5 minutes, sometimes every 3 minutes.  Only a few times were they 1minute - 1 minute and 10 seconds.  My parents and Lins arrived about 3:30am.  Just before I had told Nate that I wanted an epidural.  I had started vomiting and was having trouble breathing through the contractions.  I stayed at home until about 4:30am and then my mom and Lins drove the van and Nate and I rode in his car to the hospital.  Dad stayed home and took care of the puppy baby and their Westie puppy, Sophie.  The ride to the hospital was absolutely horrible.  It was POURING rain.  I had said, if there is one thing that I want during labor, is for it to be pretty outside, ie: not raining.  Sitting in the car was terrible and I was throwing up and crying.  Every bump that Nate hit was so painful.  Sitting was the worst.  Laying down or standing gave me the most relief during the contractions.  We arrived at the hospital and checked in.  They gave me a wheelchair....I sat in it for about 2 minutes.  Leaning on the hospital rails and holding tight while throwing up was how we walked to triage to get checked out.  The walk seemed like an eternity.  I had to take off my clothes and put on a gown...I really didn't want to do that.  Lori came in and checked me about 5:00am and I was 4cm dilated and 80% effaced.  I had chosen to have an epidural at the house, but when I heard Lori say 4cm I thought about the blogs and birth stories that I had read or heard and the wonder women had said that getting to 4cm was the hardest part....then another contraction came and I confirmed that I wanted an epidural.
contraction before the epidural

     As much as I had told myself before labor that I wouldn't be upset if I got an epidural, I felt like I had failed myself.  I wanted to be strong enough to birth my baby naturally, like my body was meant to do.  I was disappointed in myself.  The contractions were coming every 3 minutes and my disappointment and sadness was interrupted every contraction.  I was moved to labor and delivery and they put an iv in and wrapped me with cords and fetal monitors.  I hate being restrained and that is exactly what I was choosing to do.  Nate was very supportive and peaceful during the whole experience.  He kept reassuring me that I was still strong.  Around 6:30am the nurse anesthetist came in, it was my friend Kirk Hatton!  It was so wonderful to see a familiar face when you were feeling down and in pain.  Kirk gave me the epidural and the contractions sort of melted away about 30 minutes later.
taking a little nap

after the epidural

 I still knew when they were happening and some still took my breath away but I kept thinking that I didn't want to increase the medication because I wanted to be able to push and feel the labor progressing.  Linda (the new midwife) came in and checked me again and I was 5cm and still 80% effaced.  Not very much progression in 2 hours.  She came in a few hours later and checked again.  6cm and a swollen cervix.  Not the progress I had been hoping for.  Of course I immediately think that the lack of progression is due to the epidural ( I was constantly reassured that was not the case....I am still not sure I believe everyone who told me that.) Linda had me sit "pretzel style" to try to make some progress and to get my water to break.  About 30 minutes later, I think around 10:00am my water broke naturally.  Yay!  Things were looking up!  Linda came back in and checked, 6cm and still swollen.  She could now feel Leland's head and noticed it was not in the correct position so she tried to reposition him. He did not want that and turned his head back immediately after she tried.  So, I tried laying on my right side so use gravity to shift him.  Well, his heart rate dropped immediately.  Now I couldn't lay on my right side, and he needed me to so that he could shift positions.  Then the "c" word was mentioned and I melted.  The LAST thing that I wanted was a c-section.  I know that many people love their experience in having a c-section.  Linda said that she would come back at 12:00pm and check again and see if I was making progress.  Before she left, she inserted a device vaginally to measure the strength of the contractions to see if it was the lack of "power" that was causing me to "not progress."  I had heard this term countless times in documentaries and birth stories and I didn't want to be another statistic of a woman who was in labor, got the epidural, didn't progress, and ended up with a c-section.  Linda came back at 12:30pm and nothing.  Still 6cm and swollen.  The contractions were showing that they were very "powerful" and progressing as they should.  Leland was just not in the right position and was pressing on my cervix to make it swell and my cervix was just not dilating.

     Linda said that we could wait until I get to 10cm which could be another 12-24 hours or check back in 2 hours and if there is no progression then we could do a c-section and get Leland out happy and healthy.  So, Nate and I looked in The Birth Partner and read the chapter on c-sections.  We asked the nurse our questions and then decided that if there was no progression when she came back at 2:00pm then we would go ahead with the surgery.  2:00pm, Linda comes in.  6cm and swollen.  I cried.  I was hoping and praying that this was it, I had made progression and Leland would be born vaginally.  Well, c-section it was.
my dad and nate before they rolled me away

     This is when I became an emotional wreck.  The room was instantly flooded with nurses, students, and the anesthesiology team.  They increased my medication, told me of all of the risks, and I had to sign a waiver saying I was ok with the risks.  They told me that Nate couldn't walk with me down the hall, and he had to wait in the room for me to be prepped in the operating room.  That's when the flood gates opened.  I was terrified.  I hate hospitals.  I didn't want a c-section.  The one person who can calm me down and help me relax couldn't even come with me. I kissed my dad, Lins and Kristen, and Nate.  Being rolled away from them was terrifying.  I did not have a positive feeling.  I was scared and nauseous and felt so alone.
     They wheeled me into the brightest room.  Everything was white and the lights were blinding.  I was so scared.  Still crying.  My nurse, Julie, kept reassuring me I was ok and that it was ok to cry.  They moved me to the operating table and stretched my arms out like I was on a crucifix.  Horrible.  Then I heard the scariest sound.  I could hear Leland's heart rate dropping.  They turned the sound off and I hear the surgeon say, "Someone needs to go get Dad quick."  Everything was happening so quickly and I was alone just wishing Nate was with me and terrified that all of my scary thoughts about some complication happening  during birth were coming true.  (I had horrible thoughts during pregnancy that something would be wrong with Leland, or there would be terrible complications, or something would happen to me during the birth because Nate and I have been so blessed with everything in our lives that it was our 'turn' to have something 'bad' happen.  I know that is not how God works but I couldn't stop thinking that way.)  Nate came in and I began sobbing.  Then Leland was born.  It was 2:59pm.  It was totally silent and then everyone started telling me that he is perfect and healthy and Nate could see him and then I heard him cry.
the first time i heard him cry

The nurses escorted Nate over to meet Leland.  I probably asked the surgeons over 50 times if the baby and I were ok.  Then Nate brought him over to me and he had a FULL HEAD OF HAIR!  I couldn't believe it.  He was wide awake and I just stared into his charcoal blue eyes, thanking God he was ok, and still asking the surgeons if I was ok! Nate spoke and Leland turned his head and he looked right at him.  It was unbelievable!
holding my baby boy for the first time!

    I had developed a fever/infection during labor and so they took Nate and Leland to our room as they stitched me up.
7lb 6oz, 21 in long!

skin to skin with daddy

 I was in the operating room for about 45 more minutes.  The surgeons were wonderful and answered every single one of my questions and reassured me that I was totally healthy and that they were almost finished.  Julie was in there the whole time.  After everything was finished they wheeled me back to our room and my whole family was there and I saw Nate holding Leland against his chest.  I was so happy!  My mom, dad, and sisters left and Nate and Leland I were all together.  Leland tried to nurse but wasn't as interested as I had hoped (we will have a whole other post about nursing!!)  It was so wonderful and I was so TIRED.  I kept falling asleep accidentally.  After about an hour they moved us to postpartum.  All 3 of us were alive and healthy and happy.
our first picture as a family of 3!

skin to skin with mommy!